Prayers and Positivity

Just few days ago, i went to GYM (Guan Yin Ma) to bai bai. After this coming period ends, will be going for IUI. So that should be around 3rd week to end of August.

So July’s cycle is the last “natural” TTC.

I cannot try in May , June and July because i went for chickenpox vaccine. There are 2 doses and only can try for pregnancy 1 month after last dose. Otherwise, it will affect the foetus because the vaccine contains live virus.

Yes so we actually went to the hospital to ask for the IUI back in March. I made the call in March and the earliest appt available was in late April/Early May. We decided to switch our doctor from Private Hospital to Government hospital. Mostly because of the government subsidies should we decide and last resort have to go for IVF and cost is cheaper. I cannot keep spending few hundreds at month at the private doc to scan and take this meds and that. Plus they screwed up my invoices. And i kanchiong lah..scared what if screw up most impt thing how.

And also after trying for 1yr 7mths but not even successful at ttc-ing naturally, i think that there maybe a chance i may or may not have pregnancy complications infuture and what if i have to go for many tries and by the time i late 30s liao. So i opted to switch Government hospital.

This journey is very mentally and physically draining. This is something i always mentioned i want to share but i kept hesitating and i didn’t blog about it yet. I have been hesitating for awhile…but now decided to share my journey here. Previously i shared on dayre cos not many people read there.

After i posted on my instag story that i am going for IUI, i received many msgs from other ladies who are experiencing the same thing. Months and months or even years of disappointments, people around you not being even empathetic about your situation and rubbed salt into your wound etc so many actually kept to themselves.

They have the same issue. They want to find someone to talk to but no one around them can understand and some felt ashame to share.

But im glad that some girls who had successful iui texted me to give me encouragements and positive notes. Some even went through their whole iui or ivf process with me so that i can be mentally prepared and to be honest, they gave me some hope. Instead of feeling disappointed that we failed to conceive even after 1yr 7mths of trying, there is hope that we can.

And i hope to share my upcoming journey. Just like how others shared with me and opened to me about their experiences with iui or those who are in the same situation as me who failed to conceive after so long, i hope by sharing my journey and thoughts, it can give them some positivity just like how others give me and also if you feel that people around you dont understand how you feel, i do.

It is 11pm. Need to do alot of paperwork and meet underwriters tomorrow.

See you at this space real soon.

Going to kun liao.

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